Frustrations...

Lately I have been very frustrated with myself. I have been feeling gross and not as energetic as I was when I was going to the gym. Before this semester started I went to the gym again for the first time since I had Ethan cause I finally had time. I would get up early and go in and work out then be home in time for mike to leave for work. I did that for 2 weeks and I lost 5 pounds and dropped 2 inches. Then I had to change my schedule and mike started school and I lost my window of time in the morning and with mike working way late I haven't been able to get back to the gym or my trainer. I haven't gained any thing back but I haven't lost anything either. I had a plan in my mind when i started that i would be back to where i was before I got pregnant with my miscarriage, I felt good then, not great, but good and I was happy with that. I wanted to be there already but I haven't been able to get there. I have tried working out at home again but every time i start, i have two kids climbing on me or crying for attention and i get so frustrated that i just give up. I just wish it were December already so I can have MY time back and enjoy working out again. I'm tired of feeling less then everyone else  and comparing myself to me 5 years ago. I only have 10 freaking pounds to go until i reach that mark and it feels like an eternity away.